New Year. New Me. | Ringing in 2015

December 27, 2014



"After you graduate you realise you were only friends with certain people because you saw them 5 times a week."

As 2015 comes to a close, the masses tend to take time to reflect on all their accomplishments and glaze over their misdeeds and every cringe-worthy moment of the year with everyone's tagline being, "New year, new me!!"

It's been a while since my last post, but in speaking to one of my friends today, I realised something. So naturally, I pulled out my laptop and decided to pour out my thoughts in the form of a blog post (I apologise in advance) and TAH DAH...here we are! 

The aforementioned quote really resonates with me because over this year's Christmas break (which I am still currently on) it suddenly dawned on me that I hadn't spoken to more than half the people I usually sit and talk to all hour long during class. *Disclaimer: I do not condone not paying attention during class. In fact, it is highly frowned upon and most teachers find joy is administering detentions for it. So pay attention because ain't nobody got time for that!* I think what surprised me most, is the fact that it took this long before reality finally set in. Don't get me wrong, I'm sure there are some wonderful people out there who stay in contact with everyone and everything they come into contact with till' death do them part, but I am no such person. I took a look at the list of people I actually cared and bothered to make an effort to speak to during this break and I realised I only truly have less than a handful of friends (I use "list" for dramatic effect, there were only about 3 or 4 people). 

I've never been someone to value quantity over quality, friendships being no exception, but to stop and come to the realisation that you're probably never going to speak to more than half the people you know and see almost everyday is kind of sad. Is it even sadder to admit that I am okay with that? I am okay with knowing that after I graduate, I see no problem in moving on with my life, in more ways than one

As you get older, you come to know what you want in life (well, hopefully you will) and more importantly, you come to know what you don't want. And for me, I think that is why it took me this long before that quote became my reality. I finally have a sense of what I don't want and don't need in my life, and unfortunately for me, I am surrounded by "friends" who add nothing of substantial value to my life. Sometimes I feel as though I'm lying in a tub filled with leeches. Gross. I know. Maybe that's why I'm okay with leaving all of these people behind. Who wants to bathe with leeches?


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